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Aug. 20th, 2014

Spock 'n' Sulu

It’s either the book or Le Page.

Originally published at C H A N G S P A C E. Please leave any comments there.

Sigh. It’s taking so long to get my boy Mingus off of my desk and into your hands.


Don’t my boy Mingus look chill with his coffee, smokes and incendiary newspaper?

This revision process has been facing some stiff competition in the shape of real life. Damn that stuff sucks!

I’m tired of real life getting in the way of my fiction!  People gotta read theez werdzesz!!!

So I’ve been wracking my brains with a way to keep my nose to the grindstone in order to get these edits done and off to the good folks at Ganache for their copyediting prowess.

Then I remembered how a friend of mine’s father developed an ingenious technique to get himself to finish his papers on time:  He wrote a $100 check to the KKK and said if he didn’t finish on time a friend was instructed to mail it. He despised the Klan so much that he never sent the check and always got the work out before deadline.

In this day and age I was trying to come up with some person, place or thing equally abhorrent to me so that I would finish on time but also wouldn’t put me on any FBI terrorist list. Then it dawned on me: an entity that was very legal yet so hated by myself and others that it would motivate me to finish my work so they would never see a dime from me.

Thus I hereby on this blog do proclaim that if I do not finish my edits on my novel LAST SPACEWSHIP TO BROOKLYN by dawn of September 1, 2014 I will donate $100 to the Republican Party.





$100 hurts, trust me.  And giving it to a political party so inimical to the American way of life would gall me so much how can I not do it!

So by publicly stating it I know i have to do it. I have to finish this book or else I will help the Republican party with my money.


I’d better get working!



Aug. 11th, 2014

Spock 'n' Sulu


Originally published at C H A N G S P A C E. Please leave any comments there.




So a while back my boy Christian got back in touch after a long absence. We jawed a bit and found we were both still doing way cool music. He asked if I could do an album for him and I say heck yeah.  And thus this gem was born. I have to say I am pretty damn excited about this. I worked hard on it and produced a very new and different sound for me. Christian wanted ambient, noise & drone and I gave him that. And then some!

Consider hitting the donate button up there at the top of the page on the T-Scum site so you feed his babies and my animals.

Jul. 18th, 2014

Spock 'n' Sulu


Originally published at C H A N G S P A C E. Please leave any comments there.

Yeehah! The Transparent Ones have come home to roost!

So to speak.

After doling out a single copy of The Astrogatrix to a friend and posting the pic to Facebook a clamor unfurled across the social media landscape.



So I figured that with all the clamor it would be a good time to put them all out there. Because no one’s getting any younger, right?

So here’s The Astrogatrix.  And here’s Augusta, Mother of Salt.

The series is all out there now which is kinda cool.  I’m still working on the fourth book and then there is one more book of short stories set in the same world.

I hope you like it all!


May. 29th, 2014

Spock 'n' Sulu

Remixes For Sale!

Originally published at C H A N G S P A C E. Please leave any comments there.

I’m hanging out my shingle doing remixes for anyone. Anyone!  Starting at $25.00 I will remix your stuff. Examples at the page. Email me to find out more. Let my music make your music wonderful and weird.


May. 14th, 2014

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WRITERLY WEDNESDAYS: Tribal Malfunctions is done

Originally published at C H A N G S P A C E. Please leave any comments there.

So somehow, during one of the hardest weeks of my life containing the second worst day of my life, I finished the 7th or 8th book I’ve ever written.

I believe that if you’re a good writer every book, every story, every word is an opportunity to challenge yourself and improve your craft. Tribal Malfunctions is no different.

For starters it began from a bunch of notes I had for a book in 1988 (!) but couldn’t finish because I didn’t finish anything when I was young. So the notes were there in a notebook and occasionally popping up in my head until I wrote a story about one aspect of the book. “The Girl And The Wrong Shoes” is that story and the first chapter of the book.

Another thing is it’s got a lot of influence from the book “Gangs OF New York” from which the movie was loosely based (and I mean loooooooooooosely). I wanted this to have a feel like that of sheer insanity and roving weird gangs. Also a bit of the cyberpunk feel from which the original idea sprung.

The crazy thing about writing this one is that I really had no idea how it would proceed or even end. I mean really. I think that’s one reason why it was so hard to end it because while writing is a lot like making shit up all the time this one really exemplifies that for me. Not sure why. It may be because so much of it was me picking up elements from things I found in research along the way or whatever but it was hard fucking going.

So for now the end kind of blows but then that may be because it’s still hot and bloody and just off the grill and I’m not sure where this metaphor is going but I think you may understand it.
What happens now? Well… It goes in a drawer for a few months while I edit and revise Last Spaceship To Brooklyn then get that out to publishers. So I figure I’ll look at it in a few months around the end of the summer.

Try to keep yourself amused until then.

Beast mode on,


May. 13th, 2014

Spock 'n' Sulu


Originally published at C H A N G S P A C E. Please leave any comments there.

May. 6th, 2014

Spock 'n' Sulu


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Yo. TONS of stuff coming out in May. Lots of music. I been a busy mofo. Dig it! All listed here on the MUSIC page.

Apr. 9th, 2014

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“SCREW STIGMA. I’M COMING OUT.” – Journalist speaks his truth.

Originally published at C H A N G S P A C E. Please leave any comments there.

Mark Joyella is the brother of an old friend of mine (and the guy who drove us to see Return Of The Jedi, so I have him to thank for that). In addition to that he’s a journalist, marathon runner, dad, husband and wicked snappy dresser. So there’s a lot to dislike about him.  And now he’s gone and done this: written a brilliant piece about coming to terms with his own depression and how he’s dealt with it. It’s a great piece of writing and has a lot more research in it than I could ever put together. Give it a read to better understand the challenges of coping with mental health in others in your life and with your own. Thanks, Mark!

Feb. 24th, 2014

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ON DEPRESSION: New Adventures In The Same Old Brain Pt.1

Originally published at C H A N G S P A C E. Please leave any comments there.

The following is a collection of random thoughts on the nature of my depression and coming to understand it.  This is the first of many posts on the subject.  If you want to read some amazing posts about this I strongly recommend the sublime Hyperbole and a Half 2-parter (

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<p><small>Originally published at <a href="http://www.crtdot.com/wordpress/2014/02/24/on-depression-new-adventures-in-the-same-old-brain-pt-1/">C H A N G S P A C E</a>. Please leave any <a href="http://www.crtdot.com/wordpress/2014/02/24/on-depression-new-adventures-in-the-same-old-brain-pt-1/#comments">comments</a> there.</small></p><p>The following is a collection of random thoughts on the nature of my depression and coming to understand it.  This is the first of many posts on the subject.  If you want to read some amazing posts about this I strongly recommend the sublime Hyperbole and a Half 2-parter (<a href="a href=" http://hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.com/2011_10_01_archive.html"="http://hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.com/2011_10_01_archive.html&quot;">1</a> &#038; <a href="http://hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.com/2013/05/depression-part-two.html" target="_blank">2</a>) about the author’s struggle with depression and then this hilarious and highly accurate <a href="http://www.cracked.com/blog/5-facts-everyone-gets-wrong-about-depression/">Cracked.com</a> article about misconceptions of anxiety and depression.</p> <p>If it reads a little disjointed it’s supposed to.  To begin:</p> <p>So my announcing the public debut of my depression went splendidly.</p> <div id="fb-root"></div> <p> <script>(function(d, s, id) { var js, fjs = d.getElementsByTagName(s)[0]; if (d.getElementById(id)) return; js = d.createElement(s); js.id = id; js.src = "//connect.facebook.net/en_US/all.js#xfbml=1"; fjs.parentNode.insertBefore(js, fjs); }(document, 'script', 'facebook-jssdk'));</script></p> <div class="fb-post" data-href="https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=10151861838466246&amp;set=a.62532606245.84027.725646245&amp;type=1" data-width="466"> <div class="fb-xfbml-parse-ignore"><a href="https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=10151861838466246&amp;set=a.62532606245.84027.725646245&amp;type=1">Post</a> by <a href="https://www.facebook.com/changt">Charles R. Terhune</a>.</div> </div> <p>As much as something like that can.  A lot of support and love and the knowledge that a lot of other people dealing with the same thing.  Good to know I have that support out there.</p> <p><b><i>Now only if my brain knew that.</i></b></p> <p>I&#8217;m surprised I was worried that I&#8217;d be somehow perceived as weak which is totally not how I react when others have said they&#8217;re dealing with issues of depression and anxiety.  There&#8217;s a somewhat known turn of phrase &#8220;the mind is a terrible thing to taste&#8221; and I can definitely say the taste of depression is bitter and lingering (not unlike the taste of a Prozac tablet as it disintegrates on your tongue while you run around the house looking for a glass of water).</p> <p><b>CRACKUP TO BACKUP TO SMACKUP</b></p> <p>I probably should have seen crackup coming. I probably should&#8217;ve been on anti-depressants ages ago.  I began this post a week after this announcement during a low period.  Seems a perfect time to write about depression.</p> <p>I think I first noticed things were bad at ComicCon of all places.  There I was among 30,000 other people who were into comics, movies, video games like me and yet I felt absolutely isolated and terrified.  When I could have been meeting new people and making connections with artists, programmers and other writers I was sitting in a corner trying not to scream.  I fled back to my friends loft to hide in a corner for most of it.</p> <p>Returning from that I went to my doctor and said it was time to get myself on some meds.</p> <p><b>WHAT IT’S LIKE PT. 1 of ?</b></p> <p>Mornings are the hardest.  Often I wake up with a gut pinch of adrenaline, cortisol levels banking as I wake up.  The day is spread out before me, both filled with commitments and tasks that are &#8220;<i>obstacular</i>&#8221; in their nature, terrifyingly empty and broad in their scope.  Vague terrain.  Terra molto incognita.  I have no idea what&#8217;s before me and I have no idea how I will get anything done.  Is it any wonder that I end up staying in bed some mornings?</p> <p>Were it not for having to get my daughter to school I honestly might not leave bed at all.  I&#8217;m sure my wife would disagree with that but I&#8217;m fairly certain that would be the case.  Just watch Netflix (we don&#8217;t say TV anymore) and dick around on Facebook.  Yet another reason I am incredibly grateful for my beautiful girl Sophia. And my wife of course!</p> <p><b>BLACK IS BLACK IS GOOD IS BAD IS DOG IS CLOUD</b></p> <p>Though it&#8217;s an incredibly common feeling in my mind I find it hard to explain the depression when it&#8217;s not on top of me.  Some have called it the <b>black dog</b> or a <b>black cloud</b>.  I suppose the black cloud analogy is best. Or a black fog.  Fog obscures everything visually and aurally; your way is unclear, the terrain obscured and sometimes you fall.  It&#8217;s best to move slowly through fog or not at all, right?</p> <p>I guess I prefer not at all some times.  You never know what you&#8217;ll meet out in the fog.</p> <p><b>DECAY</b></p> <p>Sometimes I get in weird mental loops, ruminations about odd things.  For instance:  Decay.  In Philip K. Dick&#8217;s (a man who was no stranger to mental illness and excessive thinking about it) book <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Martian_Time-Slip">&#8220;Martian Timeslip&#8221;</a> there&#8217;s a character named Manfred who is autistic (as it was written in 1964 Dick&#8217;s thoughts around autism are outdated and somewhat pejorative so bear with me).  Manfred&#8217;s autism allows him to perceive time rapidly and see everything decaying fast, in a matter of seconds.  I haven&#8217;t read it in some time (right now is not the best time to read the writings of a schizophrenic, I think) but that&#8217;s how I remember it.  Manfred sees everything decaying rapidly in seconds.</p> <p>And sometimes I think about how everything is decaying from the moment it&#8217;s created.  Entropy is constant and unavoidable.  Then I can&#8217;t stop thinking about it.  Ugh.  Usually this only lasts a few seconds but it&#8217;s enough to bug me.  I see the world as a vibrant living thing most of the time but when the &#8220;decay&#8221; loop sets in things get to seeming a little&#8230;  <i>bleak.</i></p> <p><b>This is why we upped the Prozac.</b></p> <p>I feel better on the meds and am pretty certain I should have been on them a while ago.  This is no surprise.  But it doesn’t solve all the problems.  I still get depressed.  Prozac just allows me to get some space and perspective from my depression and the often overwhelming impact it has on my mind.</p> <p><b>Coming out of the fugue</b></p> <p>When the depression lifts it&#8217;s as if I&#8217;m seeing everything with new eyes, totally freed up and renewed.  There&#8217;s this very disconcerting mix of elation at being able to function again and guilt at feeling so inadequate during those few dark days.</p> <p>Sigh.  Best to make hay while the sun shines, right?</p> <p>Thanks for reading.  More later as news develops.  <img src="http://www.crtdot.com/wordpress/wp-includes/images/smilies/icon_smile.gif" alt=":)" class="wp-smiley" /> </p> <p><a href="http://www.crtdot.com/wordpress/wp-content/uploads/2010/09/chang_sig1.jpg"><img src="http://www.crtdot.com/wordpress/wp-content/uploads/2010/09/chang_sig1.jpg" alt="chang_sig" width="144" height="83" class="alignnone size-full wp-image-107" /></a></p>

Feb. 14th, 2014

Spock &#39;n&#39; Sulu


Originally published at C H A N G S P A C E. Please leave any comments there.

And today I give you and me the 2nd best Valentine’s Day gift ever (the first was my daughter 15 years ago)!

cathode ray tube &quot;Tribal Malfunctions&quot; EP

cathode ray tube “Tribal Malfunctions” EP

Is that not dope?  Whoa!  I cannot believe it.  The artwork is by Mattia Travaglini who has done other amazing work for many labels and bands including Somatic Responses! Rob from Component let me go whole hog on input for the cover which was daunting.  I’m used to doing my own artwork and have a specific style in mind.  I gave Rob and Mattia a list of words and images I thought were relevant for the music.  After seeing a few images this is what we settled on.

It’s simultaneously nothing like I would have done and the coolest thing I’ve ever seen.

As a music head for almost all my 45 years the album cover represents the spirit of the music within.  It’s key as both an invitation and a barometer of what’s inside.  You don’t pick up an Iron Maiden album expecting Jason Mraz (if you do you’re weirder than me).  So the artwork is as important as the music for me.  Which is why Mattia’s work is amazing because once you hear the track I think you’ll agree with me that it matches what’s going on inside (even though this is a mostly electronic release you get what I’m saying).  Here’s one cut, the epic Thug Hatchery.

And not just my tracks.  It features two remixes.  One by Rob who owns Component Records and the other by…  Tonikom!  This is huge for me as I hold her work in high regard just like Richard H Kirk, Scuba and Autechre.  So her remix on my EP?  The space brothers can take me now if they must!

I am overjoyed about this.  It’s a bright spot in what has been a couple of dark, dark years.  I’m planning a release party hopefully with a few guests.  Cannot wait!

OK.  Back to planet Earth to take on a few mundane corporeal tasks.

CRT out!




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