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July 29th, 2011

Portrait of the artist as a solar eclipse.

 
Before you hear lies from Chang Terhune himself, we thought we’d tell you the truth: without us, his old action figures, he’d be nowhere.

My old friend Membros.  Used to cheat at Uno.  Short-tempered.  Sensitive about dentistry.


He loved science fiction from way back and began reading it at an early age, but it was through us that he acted it all out. That’s what led to the writing. He watched a lot of science fiction shows like Star Trek, U.F.O, and movies, too. But we were always there to do his bidding. And it’s like they say: you always forget about the little people on your way up.

One of these things is not like the other.


Oh, the 70’s and early 80’s with him were good times! He’d use these blocks and make all the crazy buildings for us to be in his stories. I gotta say the kid’s imagination was pretty damn fertile. Oh, he had friends, but they just weren’t into it like him. He was like the Lance Armstrong of action figures. And of science fiction.

Not the author.  Just someone on Cash Cab.


At first, when he began writing in the eighth grade, we didn’t mind. He still made time for us. And we knew that when he was holding us in his sweaty little hands and he got that far off look in his eye, he’d come back to burying us in the back yard or - god forbid! – blowing us up with firecrackers. But it was worth it for a part in one of those stories. We loved him for it. He kept us around even when we were minus a leg or two - or even a head. In that mind of his, he found a use for all of us.

Then he discovered girls. October, 1986.

Girl pictured was not met in either October or 1986 but actually in March of 1993.



It was like the end of the world. One day we’re standing in the middle of this building block creation he’d pretended was some marble city on a planet near Alpha Centauri and the next we were stuck in a box in the closet. Not even a “See ya later!” Nope, it was into the closet, then we heard some high-pitched girly-giggles then silence. We didn’t see him for years. 
We got word about him once in a while. Heard he took up writing, but it was crap like “The Breakfast Club” only with better music. We couldn’t believe it. Not Charlie. What happened to those aliens with heads he’d sculpted out of wax? Spaceships? Those complex plots? All gone. For what? You guessed it: Girls. Emotions. “Serious fiction.” I tell you, it was like hearing Elvis had left the building.

During our two decade exile in the closet, we heard other things about him. He went to college. He wrote a lot, but not much he really liked. We knew it even then. It was like he didn’t dare write science fiction. Some of us had lost hope and just lay there. Others kept vigil, hoping for a day we didn’t dare speak about. 

Then we heard he’d stopped writing in 1996. Did he come to reclaim us? No. He took up music for ten years or so. He took up yoga. Once in a while, he’d visit us in the closet. But it was half-hearted. His mind was elsewhere.

Then one day, he really did come back for us.



One second we’re in the dark and the next thing we know we’re in a car headed for Massachusetts. Suddenly we got a whole shelf to ourselves out in broad daylight! Then he bought a bunch of others form some planet called Ebay. He’d just sit and stare at us with that old look. But why were we suddenly back in the picture? He had a wife now, who didn’t mind that he played with us. So what had happened?

Turns out he’d never forgotten about those stories. He’d been thinking about all of us and the stories he’d made up and then remembered he’d been a writer once. From the shelf we could see him typing away. Before long he’s got a whole novel together! Then he’s working on another one. Word is there are two more in the planning stages! Some short stories, too!
It’s good to see him using his imagination again. Its good to know he never abandoned us. He returned to his true love of science fiction. We hear the stories are pretty good. Someday we’ll get one of the cats to score us a copy of the manuscript.

Man, it’s good to be out of the damn closet!

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I'm smarter than you
I'm harder than you
I'm better than you
I'm just raw

I'm hotter than you
More popular than you
More clever than you
And goshdarn it, people like me

I'm smarter than you
I'm harder than you
I'm better than you
I'm just raw

I'm hotter than you
More popular than you
More clever than you
And goshdarn it, people like me

February 10th, 2010

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  • 06:57 Watching the sun rise over Ft. Gorges on Casco Bay. Beautiful. #
  • 09:26 Hivemind, is it true that you can put a computer keyboard in the dishwasher to clean it out? Seriously? #
  • 11:08 @markokloos So do you think an iMac keybd ca. 2005 would be washable? #
  • 11:13 @markokloos Then will you buy me a new one? :) #
  • 22:24 @alexirvine Dude probably wanted to discuss a buyout. #
  • 22:24 And that, as they say, is that. G'night everybody! Drive home safe! #
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February 9th, 2010

  • 11:03 @tonyhawk Do they allow gays there? Or do they just kill them at the door? #
  • 11:05 Okay, real work is 'done'. Now some writing and then later today I will put in about 5 hours of Rachet & Clank. Shit is hectic!!! #
  • 11:44 @wending Get it down now! I got busted in July and nearly went to jail. A Class E felon is still a felon. Don't delay! #
  • 11:58 @catvalente And they've been guilty of some neat little environmental violations! Yippeee Hippee!!! #
  • 12:11 @catvalente Not sure of the details. Something about polluting the Kennebec. Will have to do some googlation. After some editing. L) #
  • 12:20 @catvalente OK from what I can googlefu, there is more good that Tom's does than bad. I think pre-CG buyout they had some issues. More l8r #
  • 12:31 @catvalente You are the woman. I bow to thee. #
  • 12:37 Whoa! Downb to 17 chapters I could have this rewrite done by EOW!!! Holy Shit! #astrogatixfinaledit #astrogatixfinalediting #
  • 12:43 @alienistcog Heh. I gotta send some duping action your way, son. I need some physcial CD"s. #
  • 12:52 I should eat something but I really don't care about food right now. #thatsthedrugstalking #
  • 13:09 "You shoot your arrow and then you paint your bulls eye around it, and therefore you have hit the target dead centre." Brian Fucking Eno #
  • 13:10 @alienistcog Bummer. I'd love some printed CD's. #
  • 13:12 "Recorded music equals whale blubber. Eventually, something else will replace it." - Brian God Damn Eno #
  • 13:29 @stretta The interview I was quoting from was taken form that vid I think. Eno is astounding. Still. Fuh evuh! #
  • 13:41 my kid says no body says "RAD" anymore. Who here still says rad? Chime in! #
  • 14:34 Bezt Cat Picture Ever!!! tweetphoto.com/10799035 #
  • 19:14 @catvalente PICS!!! PICS!!! PICS!!! PICS!!! PICS!!! PICS!!! PICS!!! PICS!!! PICS!!! PICS!!! PICS!!! PICS!!! PICS!!! PICS!!! #
  • 19:35 15 chapters to go! #astrogatrixfinaledit #astrogatrixfinalediting #
  • 19:37 Hey, writer peeps. Do I have to spell out titles like captain, general & doctor or can I go with Capt., Gen. and Dr.? Thanks! #
  • 20:40 @dasmart That sucks. All we got is fucking cold, dry bitch-ass cold ice up here. I want snowpocalypse. There I said it. Blame me. #
  • 20:47 I earned the Bootcamp sticker on @GetGlue! bit.ly/c24a1Q #
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February 8th, 2010

  • 09:57 Best thing about the Superbowl? When it's over it means baseball season is that much closer. #
  • 11:44 FUNNY PEOPLE was a godawful, self-indulgent, vapid, unfunny movie. Judd Apatow needs to cut the shit. Seriously. #
  • 11:58 OMG!!! I just realized Parts & Labor are just a 21st century Moody Blues!!! Eureka! #
  • 12:06 @RedQueenPoet Hey! The bacon was very good. I didn't wash it down with beer, tho. Maybe later. ;) #
  • 12:16 Like many 60's era bands, The Moody Blues wrote some absolute SHIT in the 80's. Wow. #
  • 12:16 @runkeeper RUNKEEPER without a doubt. #
  • 12:21 @markokloos Word. Tho THE VOICE brings tears to my eyes whenever i hear it. That's a good 80's song by a 60's band. #
  • 12:34 @scalzi "God left you a bible but I eated it." - Satan. #
  • 12:53 Okay, this sumumumbitch book is officially 1/2 done. Now on to the 2nd half. #astrogatrixfinaledit #astrogatrixfinalediting #
  • 13:10 Okay enough fugging about. Back to the book. #astrogatrixfinaledit #astrogatrixfinalediting #
  • 13:16 Dear MS WORD, You are just about the stupidest fucking program I can think of. I hate you. - CRT #
  • 13:47 Who's going to Boskone this year? #
  • 13:52 @stretta For you and everyone else! #
  • 14:00 Hey, Spanish speaking homies, how do I write "FOR RENT" en espanol? gracias. #
  • 14:11 @Stonekettle Really? Why? #
  • 14:16 @pablod Ah, yes! Of course you know some Spanish! Well, can you help an Anglo out? #
  • 14:21 @pablod Uh, how does one say FOR RENT in spanish. SPecifically, around the Yucatan. #
  • 14:27 @pablod Mille grazie!!! #
  • 14:40 @pablod Think you could maybe help me out with some more detailed Espanol questions? Might be best over email. DM me if yes. #
  • 14:45 @ferretthimself @neilhimself Come to Daddy by the Kinks. #
  • 14:49 One bad thing about the Desk of The Gods is that it's fugging cold underneath it. May splurge on a lil heater for ma tootsies. #
  • 15:10 @baratunde I did that for teaching a yoga class once. Not for a VP debate. #
  • 15:26 Taking a break from editing for cheese, and CIVILISATION for the PS3. #
  • 20:33 My kid knows more about football than
    Me. #WTF #superbowl #
  • 20:56 I earned the Movie Buff(50) sticker on @GetGlue! bit.ly/ckk4ky #
  • 21:00 Do you like Sci Fi Books? Rate this list on @GetGlue: bit.ly/9xI77b #
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February 7th, 2010

  • 08:13 @markokloos It's 13f here. Wish I had one o' them dogs you could just empty out the window instead of walk. #
  • 08:14 GOOD MORNINGING!!!! #
  • 08:45 @markokloos Yeah, you can only wear shorts for so long in that weather. #
  • 08:46 Okay, looks like I squeezed all the fun out of the internet for now. Time to feed childre, walk dog, edit, write, etc. #
  • 09:05 Well since the dog doesn't seem so keen on going out (snoring on his bed) I'll move to feeding the kid her AM hash brown ration. #
  • 11:06 20 Chapters down. Nearing half done. Time to walk dog & go to bank them back fo mo. #astrogatrixfinaledit #astrogatrixfinalediting #
  • 14:40 OKay, finished HAlf Life 2, Ep. 2 for 3rd time. BAck to work. #
  • 14:44 twitpic.com/11qiq2 - Feb 3, 2006 shot from feb 6, 2010. PPY is 4!!! #TiltShiftGen #
  • 15:20 Phew! The big revision is officially more than half over!!! Chap. 22 is underway! #astrogatrixfinaledit #astrogatrixfinalediting #
  • 15:24 Ooops! Had my chapters misnumbered. Still just at halfway point but, sheesh!!! #astrogatrixfinaledit #astrogatrixfinalediting #
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February 6th, 2010

  • 12:48 My underwear is a little tight today. #
  • 13:16 @scalzi DId you cut yourself or just do only one side & forget the other? #
  • 13:50 @scalzi Wow. What assholes. #
  • 13:52 This is a basd time to get sleeepy... #
  • 14:07 @robertchow Did they want more or less? #
  • 14:28 @deftlyd @runkeeper posted about looking for a programmer in the boston area. Might check them out? #
  • 15:01 I don't braine so good today. #
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February 5th, 2010

  • 12:10 @deftlyd I was born ready - ahem. yeah, I'd love to play out again sometime. Got some nice stuff going. #
  • 13:01 @catvalente Will i see you out of costume? Your true werelobster self? #
  • 13:16 Introducing child to cross-dressers via Anthony Bourdain in Tahiti. Bad parenting? Please don't call DSS. #
  • 13:18 "Its' not strange. It's creepy!" CHild on transgendered people in Tahiti. Great. I raised a Republican. #
  • 14:24 @catvalente Cannibal! I saw what you did to those biscuits @ Front Room!!! #
  • 14:33 @catvalente Yeah, could be better then. I'm at home with sick kid anyhoo. #
  • 14:42 15 Chapters down! #astrogatrixfinaledit #
  • 16:38 It's days like this that I am so grateful to be surrounded by so many loving, kind people who help me take care of myself. Thank you. #
  • 17:19 @catvalente HEy, quick Q: Who customized your LJ site? Alice & I think it's way snazzy. #
  • 17:20 I realize I was never taught to cope with success. Failure on the other hand, I was given an Ivy League education in. #
  • 18:07 A whole hour. let's not fuck it up with twitter, fb, and celebrity gossip, okay? #
  • 18:29 16 chapters down; 27 to go. #astrogatrixfinaledit #astrogatrixfinalediting #
  • 18:31 Totally digging Monolake's "Silence" as I edit. #astrogatrixfinaledit #astrogatrixfinalediting #
  • 18:36 17 down, 26 to go. #astrogatrixfinaledit #astrogatrixfinalediting #
  • 18:40 18 down, 25 to go. #astrogatrixfinaledit #astrogatrixfinalediting #
  • 19:02 Okay, that's enough find and replace. Time for the meatloaf. #astrogatrixfinaledit #astrogatrixfinalediting #
  • 19:46 @palafo 13,831. Way inaccurate. #
  • 22:06 @paolobacigalupi good on ya!!! I think most I ever wrote was 6,000 or so. Massive!!! #
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February 4th, 2010

My friend Matthew Stearns sends occasional missives to friends and families about his travels.  I thought he was in Japan but I was off by at least 6,000 miles.  Read on...

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2.4.10 fangak, sudan
 
[been in a remote, violent, and totally impoverished village in southern sudan for the past 
weeks. building a clinic with my friend dr. jill seaman. here's an update...]
 
woken at 4am with instructions to prepare for rapid overland evacuation. word of a credible
threat of nighttime attack on our village brought by one of dr. jill's local colleagues. we packed food
and blankets and medicine. by 6am we were assured of normalized conditions. 
 
no one went back to sleep.
 
local authorities finally forced to bring in soldiers to get this place under control. gun
violence between rival tribal factions is a constant menace. while the presence of the 
soldiers is somewhat re-assuring, the influx of yet more ak-47 assault rifles into an 
already heavily armed area is unsettling.
 
there has been no shooting for 72 hours. 
 
a security meeting is scheduled tonight between local chiefs, administrators, and the
commissioner. word around the village is that disarmament of the local militias is imminent.
 
i will believe this when i see/hear no more fucking guns.
 
try to imagine this place: squat mud huts. dirt tracks. chafed flatlands. dust-blown barren
expanses. emaciated people in rags  (or less) with swarms of flies in their mucosa. the 
dying curled in morbid contortions in what little shade there is to be found. furnace-like heat
(temperatures regularly reach 110 degrees). the constant stench of feces, disease, death, 
rot, filth. and always, always the grinding torment of terrible violence sinking its teeth into 
everything.
 
late last night hideous screaming from the jail. a suspected cattle thief being tortured for
"evidential" information. some of our crew marched over there to protest. the screaming 
stopped.
 
encouraging: progress on the new clinic continues steadily.
 
talked with dr. jill and will be working with her doing light med. assist. duties starting in
two weeks. will try to stay on through march, but it's impossible to know one day to the next
what the hell might go down...this is end of the world type of shit going on down here.
 
as is,
-matthew
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  • 11:01 @baratunde Evvyboddy says Gluten! "Gluten!" #
  • 15:07 WHERE'S MAH DAMN LAMP, UPS? DADDY NEEDS LIGHT!!! #
  • 15:11 @shawnp0wers YES MY BROTHER!!!! Nothing beats a 5th Element reference. #
  • 15:11 @alt_mode DId you remember to wear pants? I often forget that one. #
  • 15:36 @alt_mode God where are they interviewing you from? Saturn? #
  • 15:38 Shit I gotta go somewhere else already? Fudge. I mean, fuck. Gotta keep up the rep. #
  • 16:06 twitpic.com/1188rw - At dotter choral practice w/900 million preteen girls. Send help! #TiltShiftGen #
  • 17:03 @paolobacigalupi did she bring you cookies like Thoreau's did? Or booze like Poe's? #
  • 17:21 None of these other moms realize I am a trained assasin in a dads clothing. #
  • 22:23 @deftlyd Oooohh! Do tell! #
  • 22:28 14 Chapters down. A third of the way through. #astrogatrixfinaledit #
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February 3rd, 2010

  • 12:33 @neilhimself I'm free that night. I don't look nearly as good in a dress but I will get naked on the red carpet for the papps!!! #
  • 12:34 @catvalente SOPO Borders carries LOCUS. #
  • 14:28 @catvalente LOL! Is her last name X-Ray Mexico? Tis a fave song title. Have fun! #
  • 14:33 Ginger Baker's kick in "WHITE ROOM" is astounding; powerful but it doesn't overpower the recording. You just hear him go womp womp womp #
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February 2nd, 2010

  • 08:01 There should be no harpsichords in jazz. Just.... noooo... #
  • 09:14 I am watching someone ticket my truck. Do have teh lazy? #
  • 10:11 Stephen King had cocaine & booze; I have black licorice and HAlf-Life 2. #
  • 12:46 @xenijardin Just brewing it or drinking it, too? #
  • 12:47 If SAFE AS MILK is Capt. Beefheart's "accessible" album, I shudder to think what the other's are like. #
  • 17:28 11 Chapters down; 32 to go. This may actually get done before the end of February. #
  • 17:30 I am an idiot. I didn't realize Beefheart wrote Zig Zag Wanderer. Duhhhh... #
  • 17:51 @pablod I are real. And sometimes I like to say Defendini out loud to scare away ghosts. #
  • 18:05 @catvalente Woot! Woot! You finished a novel! This calls for drinks @ Front Room soon! #
  • 18:07 Who has 2 thumbs up, loves black ;licorice and knocked back another chapter? THIS GUY!!! #
  • 19:46 @catvalente feeling off. Watching mythbusters. Wanting vitality. #
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February 1st, 2010

  • 08:00 It is a sweet day! If I was published author/ Boycott Amazon! #
  • 10:56 1 Chapter down today; 30 to go. Now to scrub off the filth I accumulated overnight. Where does it come from? #
  • 18:53 Mmmmmm Harvest dinner @ Blue Spoon in Portland, ME. tweetphoto.com/10124151 #
  • 22:00 CRT is feeling nooooooooooooooo paaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaiiiiiiiiinnnnnnn. #
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January 31st, 2010

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  • 08:50 It is a sweet day!/9 degrees - now 10 outside!/Winter in Maine sucks!! #
  • 08:51 @paolobacigalupi Congratulations! You're the man! #
  • 08:58 Ok the temp is steadily rising. I ain't leaving the house until its at least 15F. #
  • 09:15 Fortunately the dog doesn't seem interested in going out either. Now to make breakfast for the kid. #
  • 10:08 @alienistcog Allowing a day of rest even in the pursuit of discipline is okay. Saturday's my easy day. Sometimes Sunday. #
  • 10:09 @matociquala Whoa! We're up to 27F here! I think the gauge is getting direct sunlight. Still not moving from my desk. #
  • 10:16 It's hard to read blogs and listen to CarTalk at the same time for me. #
  • 10:32 Serious lack of motivation this AM. Dog's looking @ me like, "Screw the cold. I need them walkies!!!" time to suit up & leave quarantine. #
  • 11:00 twitpic.com/10ig32 - The damn cat hiding behind my desk. #TiltShiftGen #
  • 12:28 @catvalente For me I'd need to know price of book production and how much $ was going to the author. So... $15? $20? #
  • 12:31 @catvalente So I'd say $10-$15 then. But yeah, contracts need to climb up on land. Did your agent uplift yours yet? :) #
  • 12:35 @catvalente Thanks. This is to tuck away when arranging rights for the futuree. SUpposing I actually finish a book. #
  • 12:39 Feeling a little frayed, Maybe some work, water and ez-listening will help. #
  • 12:58 So far so good. Only need to knock 148 pages off of the novel. #
  • 12:59 My wife rules! 26 people signed up and present for her CONRNERSTONES OF FLOW workshop! Way to go, babe!!! #
  • 13:03 Yeah. Definitely too much coffee this AM. Nice going, troglodyte. #
  • 13:09 2 Chapters down! 41 to go! #astrogatrixfinaledit #
  • 13:09 @2muchexposition Listen to some Mahmoud Ahmed to get the flavor in there! #
  • 14:09 @scalzi It's because you're not wearing pants. #
  • 14:32 4 Chapters down! Time for a nap & a Sandra Bullock break. #astrogatrixfinaledit #
  • 14:33 I want black licorice. #
  • 15:31 @hentosz Nah, what I'm talking about is Australian Black Licorice: www.kookaburralicorice.com/shop/ #
  • 15:43 5 chapters down. On a roll. Have smushed it into a cracker. #astrogatrixfinalediting #
  • 16:04 I sound like Count von Count now. "7! 7 Chapters!" Ah. Ah. Ah. #astrogatrixfinalediting #
  • 16:07 Ugh. I hate when I can't read my own handwriting. What was I trying to say: "Mention War" "Matricide War" "natural war"? #
  • 16:09 @paolobacigalupi Babeazons? Bamazons? #
  • 16:56 Ooops. I meant 6 chapters. Now it's 7. #astrogatrixfinalediting #
  • 16:59 @hentosz Ah, thank you! That makes... less sense than before... :) #
  • 17:40 @2muchexposition Yeah, I bet things are a little interesting where you work right about now. #
  • 17:44 Well, I think 8 chapters is a good place to stop for the night. #astrogatrixfinalediting #
  • 17:45 -2447wds/ASTROGATRIX:"The ship had come back to life." #astrogatrixfinalediting #
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January 30th, 2010

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  • 08:04 It is a sweet day! So much to do and be done! is it beer time? #
  • 14:34 @stretta MY god it's full of velvet!!! #
  • 19:12 @2muchexposition Lucky you! Brian is the man! Tell him Chang who nerdgassed him about Fela in Boston @ Interfictions says hey! Have fun! #
  • 19:15 Not 1, not 2, but 3 iPods connected to my Macbook Pro. #
  • 19:15 Watching Mars to the left of the moon and wishing he could visit the Harvestman. :( #
  • 19:17 @paolobacigalupi HOnestly, I wanna buy @jaylake one first before me. I don't need shit. I'm a blessed lucky man. #
  • 19:34 @hentosz Oooh, not a bad idea. Where's my Mixer? I should do a whole mix off these before I collapse... #
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January 29th, 2010

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  • 07:31 OOOOHHHHH!!!! Dreamhost is giving away a bunch of iPads: bit.ly/dgnbN8 #
  • 08:52 it is a sweet day!/Yoga, work and then some lunch!/Then a nap, of course! #
  • 08:53 @shawnp0wers Kids are mean. And they'll never get it until they're older if at all. Sorry for your little ones pain. #
  • 08:55 Hee hee! Someone plugs my class on their blog! Next, my book! www.yoga90.com/?p=251 #
  • 09:06 @pablod I think u need da iMaxipad. #
  • 09:32 @stretta One does feel a little inadequate without those 9.75 inches, right? Sigh. #
  • 15:35 twitpic.com/1076iy - Shit! Akira's bike is for sale in Maine!!! #TiltShiftGen #
  • 16:17 @paolobacigalupi Was it the bran muffin or prunes? I prefer a quart of coffee & a good book to while away the time I'm disposing #
  • 16:26 @jay_lake If I had the money I would buy you one. You'd have to name it Max, though. #
  • 19:03 Kkeeeeerist I feel like keeeerap. #
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January 28th, 2010

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  • 08:10 Paul Anka covering rock songs? Oh, Hell Yeah!!! www.amazon.com/Rock-Swings-Paul-Anka/dp/B0009A1BXG #
  • 08:11 Hmmm. Kid's home from school today. Works for me. Now I can get my run in earlier!!! #
  • 10:17 Just completed a 2.34 mi run with @runkeeper, check it out bit.ly/8ZAsBk #RunKeeper #
  • 11:11 Gonna have to upgrade to runkeeper pro. That was a goodun, if a litte rough getting back in the saddle. #
  • 12:04 @katrinaarcher If you're really worried leave a trail of peanut M&M's and or cannoli's and I'll find you or die trying. #
  • 12:04 @markokloos Knackered? Wait, that's more than 6. Hmmm. #
  • 12:07 Apple's New Secret Product is finally announced: the iCod! The world's first smartphone/codpiece. #
  • 12:12 I'm goin' down to Mud Island. See y'all later! #thefieldstonesmudislandblues #
  • 12:44 Nice thing about being the boss & working from home #4327: Taking a nap @ 12:45PM & no one gives me shit about it. #
  • 12:44 Except the dog who thinks I take up too much couch. #
  • 13:02 @kopka Jesus I didn't even take that picture!!! #
  • 14:17 iPad? Seriously? My iCod idea was much better. #
  • 17:14 Dear Metric Users, After much deliberation I've decided to through your weird ass system out the window & use the 'Merican way o measurin'. #
  • 17:27 @markokloos I know it's dumb because Metric is kinda better & more orderly but I was raised American & thus I think this way. #
  • 17:28 @alienistcog I was lucky as Alice was out working & the kid was chilling. But where was the dog??? #
  • 17:49 God I fucking hate editing so much. Thanks for letting me say that. #editingthisfuckingdoorstop #
  • 18:13 When referring to a vessel do I include the in its title or just the name, i.e. the Titanic or just Titanic. Mille grazie! #
  • 18:24 @markokloos Oh. Fuck. Some more editing. Joy. #
  • 18:26 @katrinaarcher How large? The one's in my book are 1 mile & 4 miles long. :) #
  • 18:36 @katrinaarcher Yeah, I have taken some notes from that. ahem. #
  • 18:36 @katrinaarcher Galatctica actual is some of my favorite greek food. Mmmm. #
  • 18:48 Phew! One chapter down, 42 more to go. I'm gonna need more glue. #
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January 27th, 2010

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  • 07:16 I was unspeakably rude & cranky with my wife last night during a blackout. TOday is a day of contrition & apology. What a dink. #
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January 24th, 2010

The Saga of The Desk

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Kamandi
 Perhaps even before I got to writing I was enamored of "A Clean Well-Lighted Place" by Virginia Woolf.  More as a concept than anything else.  I've always craved a space I could cargve out and claim as my own to do my "work" whatever that might be.

Growing up this space was my bedroom of course and this is where I played with toys, slept, read, did or didn't do homework, made music, lost my virginity, etc. (oh, wait the last bit happened in another bedroom the next town over in Stamford, Connecticut).  It was a refuge, a lab, a hovel, a den, a library, etc.  

I wish I had pictures of all my spaces throughout the various stages of my life.  There have been many.  When my brother moved out, I took over his bedroom for my music around 1988 or so.  When I moved out of my parents house for good in 1992, I carted it all to an apartment of Upper Hemenway Street in Boston:  desk, Mac Classic, keyboards, amps, synths, pedals, etc.  There I made my racket, sonic and otherwise for a year or so.

In 1993 I moved in with my girlfriend at the time, a hot cougar (before there was a term for this most lovely of predators) by the name of Alice.  She had a 3 bedroom apartment that was begging for all the junk of a twenty-four year old boho to fill its walls.  So I did.  I took over two available rooms with all my stuff though eventually I brought it all down to one room.

Smile, artist!  Smile.

Stuff.  Lots of stuff.

We moved from there to a smaller place over in Medford ("Meffuh" to the indigenous peoples) and I got a room for my stuff there.  After less than a year in Meffuh we moved to a new apartment in a house we eventually bought.  When we took ownership we moved into the upper floors and I overtook the attic space for my stuff.  I think once I had all that space, more than I ever had, the conglomeration of matter decided it had room to grow and flourish and multiplied like tribbles.  Lots of junk up there seemed to just appear over the course of 8 years.  I suppose when we bought it we never thought we would leave and thus grew roots, and entrenched ourself in "things."



(Somehow this grew into an essay on material possessions.  But the title brings me back to the point.)

SO when we moved to Maine, all our belongings went into boxes in the basement of the Pea House.  For a few months ALice and I shared an office until she took it over and I did biz stuff in my office at work and music/writing in the basement desk.  


Not pictured:  rancid cat box, dehumidifier, bedhumping cat.

This was not the best of situations for a number of reasons.
  1. It was either cold as shit, damp or clammy and muggy.  Winter down there was only tolerable through constant use of a space heater that would blow hot air around the general vicinity of the desk.  To get the best effect form it I had to point it right at my feet or my butt.  Singed tailfeathers make the best musicians and writers.  
  2. The De-Humidifier.  The thing rattled when it went on and it was on year round.  It would make the lights flicker when it turned on and off.  BAsically it was a noisemaker that gathered water.
  3. The catbox of doom.  George's box was right there under the stairs near my desk and especially in the winter when the heater was on it would be especially stanktastic.  Plus the cat would Sit on top of a box and meow at me when I played music.  It was truly weird.

Fortunately when we got to our new place this all changed.  Well, I should say things shifted, some were lost some were gained.  I lost the basement studio but gained an insane view of Casco Bay.  Everything else was a gain pretty much.  And for a while I had my desk in the front window where I could look out on to the world and write and things were pretty good.


This is all the way back in the back bedroom's walk-in closet.

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Okay, now I have to digress into me & writing for a bit.  I began in my early teens & at some point around 17 I figured this was what I was gonna do.  I've written here before about having this concept, an image in my head, of me as a writer:  sitting at a huge wooden desk in a cardigan, wearing wire-rimmed glasses, smoking a pipe and clutching a fist at my brow as the words pour from my mind to the paper or silicon and I create genius.

Problem was I hated almost every second of writing and what I was doing.  I didn't like my characters or stories, I didn't like the time spent on it and I just wanted the thing done without the work.

Is it a surprise that I quit at a point in the mid 90's when I found I couldn't give a shit about the stories I wrote or the words even?

So I stopped writing and focused on music.  Which I love but the end result was the same.  Actually, I wanted to make music, loved the process of it but didn't want to do the work of running a record label, making the effort to gig and all the stuff needed to become a successful musician.  Is it a wonder then that I quit doing that, too?  No.

Around this point I discovered Yoga.  It was through the discipline of coming to my mat regularly, day after day even that I began to understand discipline as an act of joy.  Before then, it was always DISCIPLINE with a capital D and all caps as you see back there.  Never something fun but always a chore; this may be coming from my Calvinist roots, perhaps.  Der Kampf!  The Struggle!  Yoga taught me that discipline is a joy and a reward in and of itself.

Through this discovery it is no surprise that the seed of my novel was born while sitting behind a desk working in the yoga studio, wondering about an image I had of people in a crashed ship in spacesuits.  What did it mean?  Why were they there?  What was their story.  And so I began to write it...

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Two years later I would be sitting in a bay window in my apartment, freezing my toes off finishing up the novel in question.  What would follow was many revisions and its sequel.

During that year we had new shelves and a desk put in.  The carpenter, very much a noob in the field, made a lovely desk right into the shelves - only problem is it was best suited for someone her size, about 5'4".  I'm 6'7".  Yep, you see what I'm working at here?  Where I'm going?

What's funny here is that it's actually pretty clean.  And there's also a cat hidden in there somewhere.


So I crammed my stuff as best I could into the tiny space.  I wrote there and finished off the books and continued to work.  It was a workable situation but at some point my loving wife saw that there needed to be a solution.  Something different (also I had been whining about the good old days of the desk in the window) was needed.  So she said I could get a new desk and put it in the window again.

My heart sang.  

My heart sang because I think we both knew that this would be a turning point because I had passed a turning point in my journey as a writer.  I'd transformed it into a discipline in and of itself.  Writing regularly just like hitting my mat regularly; "Writing equals ass in chair" says Stephen King and "yoga equals body on mat" says I.  The two are the same and have fed each other in my life.  So I wrote, I edited, I rewrote.  I went to VPXII, I learned more about my craft and I put in the time.  While still unpublished I am a writer, a man who works at a craft.

I believe at some point that when I lost the image of me in the cardigan (groan) and accepted that it would happen in a way I wasn't going to expect - and that it would require discipline which requires blood, sweat and tear - that it began to change for me.  

So how fitting that at a point when my working life - my yoga studio - has become successful and then my artistic life has become a disciplined one that I begin the search for a place to do my work?  Very.  I hit one of my favorite stores in town on a whim, the amazing Portland Salvage, and found several desks there.  ALso some high tables that I would convert to a desk.  One my wife wouldn't get but that I would love to work at, another that would have been ridiculously small.

And then this one.
Filthy.  With age.  In a good way.
 

A double partners desk in oak from a local business.  I had a rough idea about the space I was putting it in but wasn't entirely sure if ti would be acceptable to Alice.  I decided we'd cross that bridge when we came to it, ALice the desk and I.  The owner gave me $50 off before I even mentioned my family whom she has done much business with in the past.  I waited a week to get it into the house.

The move itself was comedy gold.  The desk had been taken apart to get it into the store's elevator and hadn't entirely been reconstructed.  As fate would have it, we got it into my friend Mary's Silverado fine, but then realized we'd need another body to get it out.  The third body came in the form of my friend Chuck Turbo, and it was then when we realized the desk would come apart without special safe handling.  Finally we hefted it in pretty easily.



I am so grateful to these two friend to help me make this dream come true. 

When they left I spent the next couple of hours cleaning the desk off, for a desk that is 96 years old and has been in a metal salvage companies office for that time has accumulated some love, wear/tear and grime.  So.  Much.  Grime.

Sooo dirty...


After I managed to get it clean I sat and looked at it for a while and imagined what would go on it and how I would arrange it.



Alice came home and praised it, much to my relief.  I am infinitely grateful to her for agreeing to this, for letting me bring this desk here, and all it represents, into our lives.  Because I sure as hell wasn't taking the damn thing back!  I cleared everything out of the old hovel and onto the vast expanse of the thing I dubbed THE MONSTER.

It's a biggun.  Really.  Big.  It's my own piece of big wood (scroll down and look for the David J bit).  Kind of dominates the space but then I think the space needs it.  I know I need it.  Something like this is a commitment.  Something like this is a covenant, a pact.  Finally I think I am ready for this.  I am ready to take it on.



I am ready for the great work and have a place to do it.

January 21st, 2010

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January 16th, 2010


Here are some pretty pictures for you today.


This morning's sunrise.  Gorgeous!



This is my gorgeous wife and her hot new hairdo.  Rowr!
 


Sparky the dog's birthday cookie.  Mmmm!


My typical writing setup:  iPod/iPhone for music/info, notebook & pen, coffee or tea, artbook for references.


This here device is the Blacksheep! Blacksheep! generator given to me on my birthday by my friend Megu.  Makes truly awesome noises. I will have to post a video of them some day.


This is not an alien.  It's from some ride at Disney.  Might as well be an alien.

And since LJ image upload is sucking pondwater, that's all for now.  Grrr....



 
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